My dearest Girl,
This moment I have set myself to copy some verses out fair. I cannot proceed with any degree of content. I must write you a line or two and see if that will assist in dismissing you from my Mind for ever so short a time. Upon my Soul I can think of nothing else “The time is passed when I had power to advise and warn you again[s]t the unpromising morning of my Life” My love has made me selfish. I cannot exist without you “I am forgetful of every thing but seeing you again” my Life seems to stop there “I see no further. You have absorb’d me. I have a sensation at the present moment as though I was dissolving “I should be exquisitely miserable without the hope of soon seeing you. I should be afraid to separate myself far from you. My sweet Fanny, will your heart never change? My love, will it? I have no limit now to my love” You note came in just here “I cannot be happier away from you ” ‘T is richer than an Argosy of Pearles. Do not threat me even in jest. I have been astonished that Men could die Martyrs for religion ” I have shudder’d at it ” I shudder no more ” I could be martyr’d for my Religion ” Love is my religion ” I could die for that ” I could die for you. My Creed is Love and you are its only tenet ” You have ravish’d me away by a Power I cannot resist: and yet I could resist till I saw you; and even since I have seen you I have endeavoured often “to reason against the reasons of my Love.” I can do that no more ” the pain would be too great ” My Love is selfish ” I cannot breathe without you.
Yours for ever